97 Days Left

This is a biter sweet post. I can't believe how fast the days have gone in some ways, and then there are days or more like moments that I realize he is not here and I am doing this alone. When he turned and boarded the airplane last week a part of me left yet again, my heart. No one will ever understand, unless you go through it how it feels to send your husband, best friend, lover and father of your children overseas to defend our freedom. I am proud to do it and I support him! But I can't help but feel sad and lonely at times. This jar has been a constant reminder of this deployment. It started out 3/4 full and now it is nearly empty which gives me great happiness to look at it. I have been so blessed with an amazing husband who trusts me to take care of things here and to care for our three children alone. I am so blessed to have family close by who know and understand what I need when I need it. I am blessed to have friends that are near that help me through each little moment of weakness. I am blessed to have the comfort of my Savior who I know encircles me in his arms when I am feeling alone or need a little extra help. Without all of my blessings this year would be a lot harder. I am overwhelmed with love and gratitude for what I have been blessed with. To all of those that have and are continuing to help me through the last 97 days, thank you!